Friday, April 29, 2011

Let Go and LET GOD

The past few months of this year have been overwhelming at times and a tremondous time of testing of mine as well as my familys faith.  Since November my youngest son has been suffering from a condition with his eyes that seems could be caused by Juvenile Rheumatiod Arthritis.  Although there are no other signs or sypmtoms he seems to be their research case which at the time means no answers and alot of questions.  So since his diagnosis we have spent countless hours at doctor's offices.  I have felt myself feeling scared, confused and helpless at times.
As we were approaching the time to celebrate the death and resurrection of Christ our Savior I found myself in awe of the pure sacrifice of our Father.  He poured out His complete wrath on His Son to be reconciled to us.  I was selfish I could never let go of my son.  I found myself crying, angry and bitter I cried out to my Father "I can't do it, not my son, I can't let go of my son."  I knew I was in a low place and needed to search my heart and refocus my life around my Father.  I spent time in prayer an worship with the Father and diving into scripture.  He graciously reminded me that His word gives me comfort and strength.  During this time He reminded me of a lesson I had learned long ago comparing TRUST with ENTRUST.  I knew He was my Father and I believed His words to be true.  I trusted that He would accomplish all things to bring Himself glory but could I entrust Him with my son and the outcome of our trials.  His word says, For I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord, plans for wellfare and not for calamity, to give you a future and hope.  (Jeremiah 29:11)  For I know whom I have believed and I am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him until that day.  (2Timothy 1:12)
So through all of this He has renewed my heart and comforted my soul.  I will entrust all of me, my heart my soul, my marriage, my family espically my son to His will to be accomplished ultimately bringing Him glory.  So won't you join me my brothers and sisters as through this journey the circumstances that occur will not be able to steal the glory from our Father.  I seek through the strength of the Father to not allow the circumstances to define me but to scream from the rooftops HOW GREAT IS MY GOD MY HIS LIGHT SHINE IN THE DARKNESS OF THIS WORLD.  May we all shine light on the joy we experience knowing our Father will be glorified and may we each delight in His glory and mercies that are new each day.

So come share my journey as we Let Go and LET GOD!